Been waited quite a while....
I been waited
i been searching
i been looking
i been trying
but i couldnt find someone i really can express my true feeling
I just wanna confess, is it so hard?
not even her..
I had keeping for ages ...
no one i can share...
but just by this blogspot i express sometime
Been asking why am i keeping it myself?
I dont have true friend that i could share
None, i just pretending...
I hope one day i find it..
"Happiness only real when Shared"
shanie keep my blog as secret
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Its my fault
Am i bad?
i didnt care much about her. She start to be have faded feeling.I guess i am bad
Is it i making mistake all the time?
Ya i think yes.Because she is complaining about me
Did i hurt her badly?
Since mistake frequently happen.Yes is the answer from me
Commit or not?
-doesnt know how to answer
Is she happy with me?
Sometime yes Sometime not
Am i just use to her being around me?
No!She is just too important to me
Why am i doubting?
Because she is sad
Love her or not?or just something u need to do?
I Love her
Seriously i wanna to say that i start to have faded memories.. i scare one day i will forget about her. i am depressed
Hope Someone can share it with me.I just want to say it out
i didnt care much about her. She start to be have faded feeling.I guess i am bad
Is it i making mistake all the time?
Ya i think yes.Because she is complaining about me
Did i hurt her badly?
Since mistake frequently happen.Yes is the answer from me
Commit or not?
-doesnt know how to answer
Is she happy with me?
Sometime yes Sometime not
Am i just use to her being around me?
No!She is just too important to me
Why am i doubting?
Because she is sad
Love her or not?or just something u need to do?
I Love her
Seriously i wanna to say that i start to have faded memories.. i scare one day i will forget about her. i am depressed
Hope Someone can share it with me.I just want to say it out
Saturday, December 27, 2008
When a Man Love a Woman
he mean it.. ya dont doubt it anymore.. he really commited.. just as same as when a woman commited her love towards a man.
A difference between a boy and a man
a boy is easily absorb anything comes from the society without doubt
but a man is a person that would think before any action he going to take
I was wondering always why must I always endure it myself?
am I that bad ? I start complain and compare because I hope she could present her best.
Ya your result is in trouble but did you ask about mine?Pressure you felt are going being mine either. I doesn't know what I want but I know who am I. Everyhing turns sad when you are sad, everyhing turns happy when you are happy. But when I am sad and i doesn't want to do something, you want it. When i say this is nice that is good and fun, you say no. When your friend your family say this is nice that is good and fun, you say yes.
I just a normal human that born to this world as a boy and became a man in this society.I am nothing special in any field.
I want to express out to you but I doesn't like to see someone around me especially you unhappy and feel pressure feel stress out because of what I said. I rather hug the pain myself and i will share my laugh to everyone especially to you.
Hoping one day you will start to think you as me in this kind of situation
he mean it.. ya dont doubt it anymore.. he really commited.. just as same as when a woman commited her love towards a man.
A difference between a boy and a man
a boy is easily absorb anything comes from the society without doubt
but a man is a person that would think before any action he going to take
I was wondering always why must I always endure it myself?
am I that bad ? I start complain and compare because I hope she could present her best.
Ya your result is in trouble but did you ask about mine?Pressure you felt are going being mine either. I doesn't know what I want but I know who am I. Everyhing turns sad when you are sad, everyhing turns happy when you are happy. But when I am sad and i doesn't want to do something, you want it. When i say this is nice that is good and fun, you say no. When your friend your family say this is nice that is good and fun, you say yes.
I just a normal human that born to this world as a boy and became a man in this society.I am nothing special in any field.
I want to express out to you but I doesn't like to see someone around me especially you unhappy and feel pressure feel stress out because of what I said. I rather hug the pain myself and i will share my laugh to everyone especially to you.
Hoping one day you will start to think you as me in this kind of situation
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Wtf? i think i getting fat and more even fat than before.
Just woke up this afternoon around 1p.m i guess.. and went to have a cup of plain water
Mom: Loon, wah you are getting fatter and fatter le..
Loon: <> also no go exercise and eat and sleep only, you say le
Mom: Hahaha
Loon: <@!@#@!#!@$!@%!, if you could just dont feed me with those kampuang mian >
hahahaha
Back to my room and think back,
I guess i am, i think till tat day i went to ipoh with baby, my pants is quite tight. OMG!!
Yesterday what i did?
Went to c.ling house
Watch emo china series
Go to Joyous Church with her, her bro and her grandma
Play game <>
Go McD but just to send her
Back home
Watch One Piece
Went out with Sean to Guardian
He get an Antiseptic <>
I inhale the gas just like " bai fen "
Get high
Reach V2 see fookie Dota and inhale Laughing gas again
yc with Sp then .. inhale again
Went to snooker and inhale again
WTF i just keep on inhaling this fucking stuff
Yc again
then now bloging and one piece again
Soon sleeping
"A man that doesnt stand the heat of the charcoal during barbeque is WEAK!!"
Just woke up this afternoon around 1p.m i guess.. and went to have a cup of plain water
Mom: Loon, wah you are getting fatter and fatter le..
Loon: <> also no go exercise and eat and sleep only, you say le
Mom: Hahaha
Loon: <@!@#@!#!@$!@%!, if you could just dont feed me with those kampuang mian >
hahahaha
Back to my room and think back,
I guess i am, i think till tat day i went to ipoh with baby, my pants is quite tight. OMG!!
Yesterday what i did?
Went to c.ling house
Watch emo china series
Go to Joyous Church with her, her bro and her grandma
Play game <>
Go McD but just to send her
Back home
Watch One Piece
Went out with Sean to Guardian
He get an Antiseptic <>
I inhale the gas just like " bai fen "
Get high
Reach V2 see fookie Dota and inhale Laughing gas again
yc with Sp then .. inhale again
Went to snooker and inhale again
WTF i just keep on inhaling this fucking stuff
Yc again
then now bloging and one piece again
Soon sleeping
"A man that doesnt stand the heat of the charcoal during barbeque is WEAK!!"
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
This is a new blog?
Been wondering what has happened throughout my life, since i was born till now. 21 year old liao, no doubt ya i am 21. Old memory slowly faded in my brain and new memories start to pack in my brain. Don't tell me , you still remember those old times when you are young. For example, do you remember how you start cyling? I has forgotten already. Not just that, even some time I try to put my very best to remember those day i with her. It has 5 years, do you think I can remember those clearly? My answer is no but i am trying.
Sometime been wondering is time flying too fast?or I just beeing a turtle of a time?This few day has a good example. With friends and with her the time was just like flying but when i deal with myself alone, i found out like the time stop moving. There is a sentence from a movie " Being with happiness, time seems too fast but when Dealing sadness or emptiness everything start to slow down just like my world stop.
When we fight for our daily routine during school semester , we are just trying archieve something that we need. When our fight comes to a break, everything seems to be empty. I am happy to have break since i fight for a long period but things seems to be nothing. Nothing in my heart but waiting for school start.
A question brought up, How i Maintain a 5 years relationship? Secret?
My answer? well , Both commited without a doubt of both life now and accepting both life now. Being understanding and try to being in a situation of his/her is. You will understand a lot then just explain. A love is not going to happen like those movie. Even you are going up and down always but you must know how to maintain. Movie is movie, a sad ending or a happy ending. A Life, you can change - you have the choice to choose From A - Z . A Love can appear from time to time but once you choose commit fully. Even sadness or happiness , you will let it flow together. Don't let one endure it by self.
It have been a time, everything changes. From high school to university, From our physical look, From 2 home to 1 home, From time to time.. Everything changes but not My heart to you.
being weird, confused and crazy this holiday.
Been wondering what has happened throughout my life, since i was born till now. 21 year old liao, no doubt ya i am 21. Old memory slowly faded in my brain and new memories start to pack in my brain. Don't tell me , you still remember those old times when you are young. For example, do you remember how you start cyling? I has forgotten already. Not just that, even some time I try to put my very best to remember those day i with her. It has 5 years, do you think I can remember those clearly? My answer is no but i am trying.
Sometime been wondering is time flying too fast?or I just beeing a turtle of a time?This few day has a good example. With friends and with her the time was just like flying but when i deal with myself alone, i found out like the time stop moving. There is a sentence from a movie " Being with happiness, time seems too fast but when Dealing sadness or emptiness everything start to slow down just like my world stop.
When we fight for our daily routine during school semester , we are just trying archieve something that we need. When our fight comes to a break, everything seems to be empty. I am happy to have break since i fight for a long period but things seems to be nothing. Nothing in my heart but waiting for school start.
A question brought up, How i Maintain a 5 years relationship? Secret?
My answer? well , Both commited without a doubt of both life now and accepting both life now. Being understanding and try to being in a situation of his/her is. You will understand a lot then just explain. A love is not going to happen like those movie. Even you are going up and down always but you must know how to maintain. Movie is movie, a sad ending or a happy ending. A Life, you can change - you have the choice to choose From A - Z . A Love can appear from time to time but once you choose commit fully. Even sadness or happiness , you will let it flow together. Don't let one endure it by self.
It have been a time, everything changes. From high school to university, From our physical look, From 2 home to 1 home, From time to time.. Everything changes but not My heart to you.
being weird, confused and crazy this holiday.
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